I thought I could stay happy when baby booked in, but it looks like I can't. I wasn't in a very good mood today and vent my frustration on someone I think. As a result, I didn't speak much in school.

I'm just waiting for Friday to quickly come, so that I can see baby. Oh! Daddy's coming back on the 31st and I don't know if I can go to the airport on that day. When Daddy's back, I can get my new phone already. Baby is bent on changing to the same phone as me. He just doesn't listen to me when I tell him to save money. Back to Daddy anyway, have I grown to be so close to baby that he can replace my father? Why don't I feel as happy as last time, when Daddy came back from China? No. No. No. It CANNOT be. Nobody can ever replace my father. Argh! I'm thinking too far.



Fuck off bastard.
You'd better distance yourself from my mother.
Go back to your rubbish dump jerk.
Stop wasting my precious time.
I'm showing my respect to you only because
of your relationship with my father and
respecting my mother's decision.
I never needed an OUTSIDER'S care and concern.

(Both my mother and my father are not having a relationship outside. It's not what you think it is.)

Baby botak le! And he's going to book in today again. It's like damn fast can.

Anyway, I cabbed to HTA to wait for baby to come out on Friday. I couldn't recognise baby for a moment when he came out. Only after baby "eh" at me then I realised it was him. There was like so many people walking in and out of the entrance lah and the different hairstyle still wasn't registered in my memory yet. Baby came out at 4.30pm and we cabbed back to Ark. I also went to find baby today and yesterday.


I'll be waiting for you to come out on Friday, baby.

Baby's comg back TOMORROW, in less than 24hours. Can't wait. Can't wait. Can't wait. =D Even though uncle said that baby might not book out on time, I still will go to the Home Team Academy to wait for him. I've decided to go to Ark first to put my things down after remedial. Then, wait till about 3.40pm or 3.45pm and I'll cab down to HTA to wait for baby. Hopefully the weather will be fine tomorrow. Once, I've met baby, we will cab back to Ark. haha. Nam Chuin have been nagging me to drag baby to see him first before going anywhere.

Today's weather is freaking hot man. It was damn stuffy at Ark also but I still did some photocopying and stuff though. Auntie Ark's mother was all alone at the shop today.

TOMORROW! The shitty day has been crawling very very slowy. grr!

2 more very slow days to pass... Damnit!

I was damn moody in the morning and kept on trying to find things to vent my anger on. As a result, I acted a bit weird. Luckily, Rachel, Wan Yin and Wynne were understanding of my weird behaviour. However, when it was coming to the end of the day, my mood was better. I went to Ark after my remedial and stayed till 6.30pm, which was much later than the time I usually go home. But my mood was definately better when I am there because there's auntie Ark's mother to talk to me and customers to keep me busy. Auntie Ark wasn't there today, so her elder sis came. This is the first time I saw her but I think they don't look alike. haha. Now suan-ing Nam Chuin is a habit for me. When uncle came back, I helped sort the photocopied papers for binding and tried a bit of binding before going home. I just realised that it was damn difficult to do can.

I think I will be acting weirdly for the next 2 days because it will be very difficult for me to pass time in school. Pardon me, my friends.
Going to do my homework now. =D

3 more days left!

I'm SICK of staying back everyday. WTF. But I think baby will be feeling even more bored about being cooped up inside the police academy. I've been thinking of how to go to PA this friday since last week and what to do after that. =) Looking forward! Looking forward!
I went home after the social studies supplementary to get changed and went out again. I helped out at Ark for awhile and spent my time there, while waiting for a very very late birthday present. Then I went to get my jeans altered. I went home at almost 6 I think.

Baby's coming back this week!

4 more days before I'll get to see baby. I'm feeling very sian and pek chek today lah. Today seems to be extremely long baby sms-ed me like only 2 times, one in the morning and one telling me to help him photocopy the command list when I go to Ark. Both are without replies. I think I have already gone crazy can. I didn't go to Ark today, maybe tomorrow. Due to the rain, I reached home at 6pm and I've been wanting to go home since the start of the day. I AM crazy already. I want baby to come back NOW.

It's finally Friday already. One more DAMNED week to go and baby will be out.

I realised that it's no use being sad because baby will eventually come out, and I get to see him again. It's just a matter of time, so I'll continue missing him but try not to get sad anymore.
I went to Ark again today and spent the afternoon there. Nam Chuin taught me abit on how use the photocopier so I helped in a bit of the photocopying. But hor, he teach halfway one, still can say himself good teacher. haha. Then I went with Auntie and Nam Chuin to pick Joey up from school. She's damn cute lah. Maybe I'll take a picture of her someday. I think I'll go to Ark more often. At least I have something to keep myself busy with and baby can also put his mind at ease when I'm there.

This is like only the 3rd bloody day. omg. I'm damn pek chek already can?? Time seem to pass so so SO slowly.
School is also extremely boring, stay back everyday. Now I only feel like staying at home, doing nothing at all. I went to Ark today, for awhile. The feeling's not the same, like without baby there to talk jiaowei and crack jokes. wtf. I'm really really pek chek now.
Anyway, I've decided to go to the Police Academy on Friday to pick baby. The taxi fare is expensive. Anybody wanna come as well?

The second day baby is gone. THE DAYS ARE PASSING REALLY SLOWLY!!!!

I didn't feel like listening during Amaths class today, was thinking of what baby is doing at that point in time and getting a bit emo again. At least today isn't as bad as yesterday, where I cried all the way till morning assembly when baby went to my block to see me off to school in the morning.
Rachel and Wan Yin walked to the bus stop with me today because I didn't feel like taking 197. I think they were actually worried about me getting emo again. haha. Many thanks to the 2 of you, I really appreciated that. (although I think Rachel won't read my blog) Oh. To the people who tagged, thanks too.


Friend of Chin Teck, you are Huijun is it?

HAPPY 14th MONTHS BABY!

It's 14th month without baby today and I fking cried can! Today is the first anniversary without him. Baby is posted to police and he can come out ONLY after 10 days. OMG! This is only the first day lah. 10 days is almost 2 weeks leh. I am seriously damned not used to it. I see him 5 days a week, baby comes to my school to pick me every single day, no matter rain or shine and sends me home right to my door. Now I have to go walk a long way home all by myself and getting emotional. Am I being stupid?
9 more days to go.


Baby has been worrying a lot the last few days.
I promise I will wait for you baby.
We've been through so much and I won't give up so easily.